I felt led to share some thoughts with you, so here’s a random musing…
You know that feeling that things never happen fast enough? The feeling like you’re running in place, and what’s all the effort for? That was me a year ago. Total panic, y’all! I had just graduated from college, and I thought that things would fall together immediately, and I’d be set. HA! Looking back, that was such a ridiculous thing to think. When things didn’t come together like I’d hoped, I started doubting....and crying. Lots of crying. A lot of young people struggle, because they have this idea that everyone else is doing great and has it together, and they are alone in their confusion. I can’t tell you how many of my friends came to me in those first few months out of college saying, “So and so got a job, and I’m over here with no clue.” A lot of times, the person they were talking about had just came to me telling me they felt in over their head! We ALL struggle. I guess the question is, what are you doing with the struggle? Are you using it to learn and grow, or are you throwing your hands up and sitting down in the feeling of being stuck?
We get stuck feeling like we’re not far enough on our journey. Like we’re not good enough, successful enough, healed enough, pretty enough, young enough, old enough, talented enough, lucky enough….the list goes on. Those feelings are false. YOU ARE ENOUGH! Right here and now, where you are, who you are.
If I feel lost or frustrated, I try to look at where I am through the eyes of a younger version of myself. A 14 year old me would think I am living the dream! I have an incredible, loyal support system of friends in a new city where it doesn’t snow ;). I have performed on stage in front of hundreds of people. I’m recording an album of music that means a lot to me. I have a Chihuahua! Dreams do come true! I heard some great advice, and it goes like this: don’t give up right before the miracle. I can feel the miracles happening beneath the surface, and I’m learning to enjoy the ride before then!
Sure, I’m not where I’m going, but I’m not where I’ve been! I’m taking some time to celebrate that.
I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments below! What do you do when you feel stuck? What are you grateful for? What miracles have you seen?
Peace, love and rockabilly,
Amanda Lyn (and Rosie)